JA TRYMAJU SVOЇ DOLONI NA SERCI FALŠYVOЇ ISTORIЇ I HOLD MY PALMS ON THE HEART OF FALSE HISTORY

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JA TRYMAJU SVOЇ DOLONI NA SERCI FALŠYVOЇ ISTORIЇ. NENADIJA, NEPROHANNJA. NENAVYST DO ŽYTTJEVOЇ SPRAGY. LJUBOV DO NENAVYSTI ŠČODO ŽYTTJEVOЇ SPRAGY. NIKOLY NE DOSTATN'O STRAŽDAN', VYGUKIV, MENTALNYH VYBUHIV. JA ZALYŠAJU CE, NAVIČNO ZALYŠAJU. ZALYŠAJU GNIJUČI ZALYŠKY U PEKELNYH MISCJAH, ZALYŠAJU U PEKLI ISTORIЇ, U PEKLI MYNULOGO.

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D'ЇNOJA 24/12/22

I HOLD MY PALMS ON THE HEART OF FALSE HISTORY. HOPELESSNESS, UNWILLINGNESS. HATRED FOR THE LIFE'S THIRST. LOVE FOR THE HATRED OF LIFE'S THIRST. NEVER ENOUGH OF SUFFERING, OF SHOUTING, OF MENTAL DETONATIONS. I LEAVE IT, FOREVER LEAVE IT. I LEAVE ROTTING REMAINS IN HELLISH PLACES, I LEAVE THEM IN THE INFERNAL HISTORY, IN THE HELL OF THE PAST.

KNEEL, CHILD. BECOME A THIEVING THOUGHT, A PULSATION AND THE HATRED OF PULSATION. THE THOUGHT OF DEAD SUBHUMAN BEINGS MEANS NOTHING, HAS NO PRICE, HAS NO MEANING. REQUEST. I AM THE REMNANT THAT WAS LEFT BEHIND. I LEAVE EVERYTHING THAT HAD VALUE FOR ME, THAT HAD ME IN THEIR ACCIDENTAL HEARTS. 

THE REASON FOR HOLDING THE BREATH. BECOMING A RATIONAL ANIMAL. THESE PHASES OF IMPATIENCE. DESTROYING EVERYTHING FOREVER. NO MORE, NEVER AGAIN. OLD HOPES FINALLY DESTROYED. OLD IDEALS BURNED, THEIR SKELETONS SHREDDED TO POWDER. WIPED PALE PALMS. BECOME AN ACCIDENTAL DESTROYER, CHILD. IN THE NEW TIME. 

IN A NEW BIRTH, THERE WAS NEVER ANY HOPE FOR REAL LIFE, BREATHING, EXISTENCE. WHY BEGIN. THERE IS NO NEED TO BEGIN. I AM DEVOID OF INTENTION. NO EMOTION. EVERYTHING IS GONE AND FOREVER DESTROYED, BURNED BENEATH THE SCORCHED BONES OF FOOLS.

YOU ARE STARTING AGAIN WHERE YOU LEFT OFF CENTURIES AGO. TORTURE WITH THE METHODS OF A DEGRADED ANIMAL. NEVER FOUND AN OUTLET IN THE WAVES OF TRUE ART. THE OLD OCEANS OF MY PAST PRESENCE. IN THOSE PLACES, NEAR THOSE DIRTY WATERS. VARIOUS DESPERATE ATTEMPTS. WALLS OF MEANINGLESSNESS. OCEANS OF POST-PHILOSOPHICAL WASTE.

DESTROY ALL TRACES OF THEM, DESTROY THEM FOREVER AND MOVE ON. FOLLOW YOUR STARS. LOOK TO THE STARS. BE THE STARS. LEAVE THE HUMAN SUFFERING, BECAUSE IT IS CREATED FROM THE NATURE OF THE BEAST. IMITATED BY A TWO-LEGGED BEAST, NOT A HUMAN BEING. IF MAN IS THE EYE OF GOD, WHY SHOULD YOU BE A FOOLISH ANIMAL. 

LET THY STARS SHOW THEE THE WAYS AND PATHS TO THE SECRET PLACES OF THY MIND AND ITS DESIRES. GO TO WHAT IS UNFAMILIAR TO YOU, UNEXPLAINABLE. AND IF FEAR BINDS YOU, DO NOT DARE TO STOP FOR A MOMENT. DO NOT FALL INTO THE TRAP. YOU ARE NOT THE IMAGE OF NAIVETY. 

YOU ARE A SHEEP THAT WAS WEAK AND POISONED ITSELF WITH ITS WEAKNESS. THINK AND UNDERSTAND, UNDERSTAND AND THINK ABOUT HOW TO CHANGE, TRANSFORM, GROW YOURSELF, MAKE YOURSELF WHAT YOU WANT TO BE. OR WHAT YOU ALREADY ARE. OR START DOING, CHILD. OR START TO REALLY CREATE, CHILD. START AND TAKE A STEP. 

BEGIN AND DO, FOR IT IS YOUR WILL AND YOUR DESIRE, MY CHILD. YOU HAVE MADE YOURSELF FROM THE BONES OF PAST MEMORIES OF YOUR OLD MATERIALS. THE RESPONSIBILITY IS ON YOUR SOUL. ALL TEMPORALITY. THE SHADOWS. POST-ART. RAISE YOUR BODIES AND USE THEM AT YOUR PERSONAL ORDER. 

YOU ARE YOUR OWN DISCIPLINE. ENOUGH SCRIPTURES, ENOUGH TREATISES, ENOUGH POETRY, ENOUGH WRITTEN GARBAGE. START ACTING, MY CHILD. ALL MY SONS AND DAUGHTERS, CREATE! DO NOT KNOW THE ILLUSORY FEARS OF ANIMALS. KNOW YOUR DESIRES AND INTENTIONS, CREATE THEM, FORM THEM IN REALITY. 

ALL OF YOU ARE WORMS, BELOW AND ABOVE AND IN THE MIDDLE. FOURTEEN MEANINGLESS REQUESTS SENT TO THE VOID. I LEAVE YOU, YOUR BODIES, SOULS, HEARTS. I LEAVE YOU FOREVER. THIS IS A LIE AND IS ALSO MY LAST TRUE BREATH. MY LOVE AND HATRED HAVE NO MORE POWER. ALL MY HOPES ARE DESTROYED FOREVER, AS WELL AS ALL THOSE BODIES THAT TRANSPORTED THEM.

DINOYA 12/24/22