MY EFFORTS AT DREAM MEMORIZATION III

 06.19.21

ANDREA AND GLUZ. RETURNING FROM THE BUILDING WITH TWO TEAPOTS IN ONE BAG, AND ONE IN ANOTHER, I MET TWO YOUNG MEN, THEY WERE NOT TEENAGERS, BUT THEY WERE NOT GROWN UP AND WEALTHY EITHER. I TALKED TO THEM.

BUT BEFORE THAT, I REMEMBER THEM FOLLOWING ME AS I WALKED HOME, WALKING BEHIND ME, WITH ANOTHER GROUP OF MEN BEHIND THEM. SLIGHT PANIC AND ANXIETY ACCOMPANIED ME, I HAD NO IDEA WHO WAS CHASING WHOM.

AFTERWARDS, I SEEMED TO MISS THEM AND THEY WALKED FURTHER DOWN THE STREET. I FOLLOWED THEM. AND THEN, WE WERE SITTING NEAR SOME INTERSECTION, TALKING TO EACH OTHER. THEY WERE COLD, BUT THEY QUICKLY ACCEPTED ME. 

I THOUGHT THEY WERE ANARCHISTS OR SOMETHING. "YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL TO YOUR MOTHERS AND FATHERS FOR BEING BORN IN A COUNTRY WHERE YOU ARE FREE TO PICK AND CHOOSE," I PRONOUNCED. I KNEW ONE OF THE BOYS WOULD DIE. 

"WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS AND TURMOIL, YOUR COUNTRY STILL HAS A LOT OF PROMISE," I SAID FOLLOWING, ONCE MORE. THEY EVEN SEEMED TO BE LISTENING, PERHAPS THINKING A LITTLE. BUT SUDDENLY I SAW A MOVING MASS OF STINKING BODIES IN UNIFORMS, SEARCHING FOR SOMEONE TO MOCK OR SACRIFICE.

THEN I THOUGHT MAYBE THEY WERE LOOKING FOR THAT GROUP OF MEN WHO WERE FOLLOWING US. I IMMEDIATELY RAN. THE TWO BOYS WERE RIGHT BEHIND ME. I DON'T KNOW IF THEY UNDERSTOOD WHAT HAD HAPPENED FROM THE BEGINNING, OR IF THEY JUST FOLLOWED INSTINCT. I STILL REMEMBER SOME THINGS, VAGUELY AND INDISTINCTLY. 

ONE OF THOSE BOYS WAS MISSING. OH YES, WE ALSO TRIED TO KNOCK ON SOMEONE'S DOOR TO HIDE US, BUT NO ONE OPENED. AFTERWARDS I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS ONE OF THOSE YOUNG MEN WHO HAD BEEN SHOT. DID I LOSE MYSELF THEN, DID SOMETHING TAKE OVER MY BODY. 

I ENDED UP IN THE BODY OF ONE OF THE GUYS I WAS TALKING TO. TOOK A BULLET TO THE FOREHEAD, TAKING COVER FROM IT. WHEN THEY FOUND IT, IT WAS BEGGING NOT TO BE DONE TO IT, AND RIGHT AFTER IT STOPPED SCREAMING, THE SHOT CAME.

IT WAS IN LOVE WITH ME, AND MY SELF-LOVE DESTROYED ME, I WASN'T READY TO LOVE BACK, I WASN'T BRAVE ENOUGH TO LOVE BACK. I SHUDDERED AND HORRIFIED AT THE THOUGHT OF LOSING MYSELF AND SACRIFICING MYSELF FOR A DISPOSABLE, HUMAN CARCASS. I COULDN'T TAKE THAT RISK, BEGGED FOR IT, AND TOOK MY BULLET. 

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