ONE MASSIVE LIMITATION
THE EXPERIENCE ITSELF AND THE STATE WITHIN THE EXPERIENCE. EXPLORING AND DECONSTRUCTING THE EXPERIENCE THAT THE SOUL GIVES TO THE BODY. TO UNDERSTAND OR FORGET EVERYTHING KNOWN. NO MATTER, NO QUESTIONS. SMOKING IS NOT ALLOWED WITHIN MY CORNERS OF MY POSSESSIONS. REMOVAL OF THE UNCONSCIOUS PART MEANS REMOVAL OF THE EXPERIENCE AS A WHOLE. FOR NO MYSTICAL EXPERIENCES ARE POSSIBLE IN A PURELY CONSCIOUS STATE, WITH ALL AWARENESS AWARE OF ITSELF AND THE PROCESSES THAT ARE GOING ON WHILE THE BODY IS EXPERIENCING SOMETHING.
STUPIDITY IN A NEVER-ENDING SEARCH. NOTHING THERE IS, NOR EVER WAS. I AM THE SOMETHING, THE MEANING OR THE ABSENCE OF ANY RATIONAL EXPLANATION, NO REASON, THE ABSENCE OF REASON. WHAT HAS BEEN THERE HAS NOW EVAPORATED. WHAT WAS NEVER THERE TODAY AND NOW IS HERE. FILM IT, CAPTURE IT. NEVER WILL BE ENOUGH AND NEVER WILL BE A REASON. THE REASON HAS NO REASON ON ITS OWN. IT DOESN'T COME FROM OUTSIDE THE WORLD'S VARIETIES. STANDING AND UNDERSTANDING, ALWAYS NEVER ENOUGH. FORTUNATELY, NOTHING WORKS PROPERLY TODAY. ONLY COLD AND HEAT, FROZEN EYELIDS AND SUFFOCATING SWEATS.
NEVER LOOKING BACK AT THE PLACES I'VE BEEN. NO SENSES ARE ENOUGH. COUNTLESS VARIETIES OF MEAT APPEAR AND DISAPPEAR, BRINGING NO MEANING. HARDENED AND NERVOUS BODIES ARE STILL REFLECTED IN THE EYES OF MINDLESS BESTIAL CREATURES. WHAT HAS BEEN FORMED WILL NEVER BE REFORMED AND FOREVER FROZEN IN THE TIME TO WHICH IT BELONGED. NEITHER LIVES NOR DEATHS WILL EVER SATISFY ME. HAVE REACHED THE PINNACLE OF ALL UNDERSTANDABLE AND INCOMPREHENSIBLE. BEYOND THE SENSES AND THINKING. BETTER TO EXIST IN TIMELESS SILENCE, OR DARKNESS, OR IN ETERNAL MIGHTY LIGHT, OR IN NOTHING AT ALL.
AFTER ALL, EVERYTHING IS LEFT WITH NOTHING, TURNED INTO NOTHING. SO AM I, AND ALL MY PHANTOMS, PHANTOMS OF THOSE PHANTASIES GONE AND TO COME. BUT I HAVE SEEN MYSELF FROM MY FUTURE POSITION. A POISONOUS POSITION. NEVER REVIEW WHAT HAS ALREADY BEEN REVIEWED. I SUFFER DAY BY DAY FOR I AM A FOOL WHO HAS NOTHING TO NEITHER UNDERSTAND NOR TO ACHIEVE. NOTHING CAN BE KNOWN, ALL THINGS PRESENT THEMSELVES AND LET THEMSELVES BE KNOWN BY ME AND THE WILL OF MINE. STOPPED READING, STOPPED WRITING, STOPPED REACTING, STOPPED FEELING, STOPPED THE STATE OF WAKEFULNESS AS WELL AS THE STATE OF DREAMING.
TRULY EXISTENCE IN A DECADENT UNIVERSE. NO BRIGHT LIGHTS. BLEAK AND NEUTRAL, NEITHER NEGATIVE NOR POSITIVE. ITS MEANING IS ABSENT AND WILL NEVER COME TO LIFE. WORTHLESS AND USELESS, CANNOT USE IT AND CANNOT KNOW THE MEANING, FOR THERE IS NO MEANING. NO HIDDEN MEANINGS.
IF YOU ARE ATTENTIVE ENOUGH, O MY FOOL, YOU SEE AND REALIZE THAT ANY MEDICINE HAS NO EFFECT ANYMORE. YOU DO SEE THAT NOTHING WORKS AS IT USED TO WORK. YOU DO SEE THAT YOUR BODY SENSES ARE NOT AS SHARP AS THEY USED TO BE. YOU DO REALIZE, DON'T YOU, O MY LITTLE TREASURE. YOU DO SEE AND FEEL THAT THERE IS NO INSPIRATIONAL ACTS NEITHER FROM THE SPECIES NOR FROM NATURE. YOU DO SEE THAT NOTHING CAN BE AFFECTED ANYMORE. SO YOU SEE THE FOOLISHNESS OF THE SENTENCES.
FOR YOU ARE LIVING AT THE END OF TIMES. FOR YOU ARE LIVING IN THE VERY HEART OF DECADENCE. A MEATLESS MEAT, BODILESS BODIES, SOULLESS SOULS, MINDLESS MINDS. AN IMITATIVE ACTS MAKING FUN OF NATURE AND LIVING THINGS. THE PROCESS IS SARCASTIC AND IRONIC. ALL OF THIS HAS NO MEANING ANYMORE. SO THIS IS NEITHER SARCASTIC NOR IRONIC. "IS IT SAD?" - YOU MAY ASK. - NO - THAT IS THE ULTIMATE ANSWER. HAS NO MEANING WITHIN ITSELF, ANYMORE. THE RESPONSE IS IRRESPONSIBLE FOR IT IS MEANINGLESS AND CARRIES NOTHING BUT EMPTINESS.
DO NOT KNOW ANY LIMITS. EVERYTHING IS A LIMIT. IN LIMITLESS UNLIMITEDNESS, EVERYTHING IS LIMITED. PRESSED INTO THE BOX OF ONE MASSIVE LIMITATION.
DINOYA 11/8/22 - 31/8/22
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